

it's so surealSept 27, 2000it's so sureal
Okay So its surreal Yes that it is And so for real -but still
I cant identify What I feel.
I can speak Though I can hear A voice other than my own.
While my mouth moves Midnight meows In triplicate we wonder
Hows?
Its fading now And almost gone Virtual satisfaction Lingers on
Tahira


Right now IMay 11/15, 2000Right now I
Right now Id like
to cry To crawl within myself
and die To look in to your Pacific Blue eyes And say while meaning it Good bye
Right now Id like no more than to run to you And smiling,
say Hi
And returning to the beginning I repeat myself -and cry
Tahira


I write as ifMay 17, 2000I write as if
I write as if My words could not exist Without you.
Words without tears I now shed with frequency -Why?
I cried before you Now I cry almost always for you.
Weeping for
the loss of pain the loss of pleasure the loss of knowledge and the loss of life
The life I lived for is gone. Alongside my Will to live on. -Again Why?
There was life before you. A life comprised of pain Sporadic pleasure and knowledge to be gained.
-In


I amMay 11, 2000I am
I am disappointed In myself In my decision
I know its bad for me You are for me
Unhealthily
I didnt want to go And fought myself violently Until she regained control.
Now shes out of it Wasting contemplation On a moot situation.
Ive past the point where I see Youre no good for me But bad Is all I ever had And all Ill ever be.
Im disappointed in myself For your not loving me.
Tahira
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"We all need love. Love brings us joy and well-being. It is as natural as the air."
~Thich Nhat Hanh
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"We all need love. Love brings us joy and well-being. It is as natural as the air."
~Thich Nhat Hanh
ps. I'm glad u posted that paper. I'm going to check it out.
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